Sunday, January 27, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
我笑了， 我又哭了
在晚报上看了一则报道，标题是：觉得很‘显’啊！工作倦怠症找上门。报道上写的一些症状，大多巳乎我都有。
但看了建議，我笑了。
今天听广播，听著那母亲的焦灼，突然感受到她的无助，孩子失踪了一个晚上，怎么办，怎么办？半小时后，听众捎来了找到孩子的消息。突然感受到她那一刻应该是喜极而泣吧。顿时，我哭了。新加坡还是人间有温情的。 再看了一些MC的相关报道，我又哭了。人真的要在走了后才会知道自己有这么多好友，有多么受爱戴吗？想想自己，如果走了有多少人会想起我？
有点无聊吧。我看我该去看医生了！
- 类似自闭现像，不愿与同事接处 ﹣checked
- 身体容易疲劳 ﹣checked
- 工作成就感低 ﹣checked
- 失眠 - checked
- 工作效率降低 ﹣checked
- 感情疲怠 - Hmm....erm...don't think so
但看了建議，我笑了。
- 沟通澄清自己 ﹣谁不想，落花有意，流水会听吗？
- 了解自己的长处与短处 ﹣erm...
- 提升自己 - erm...
- 沟通, 沟通, 再沟通 ﹣哈哈哈哈
- 假设情况恶化，公司需要给予协助 ﹣erm...上司会怎么看你呢？
今天听广播，听著那母亲的焦灼，突然感受到她的无助，孩子失踪了一个晚上，怎么办，怎么办？半小时后，听众捎来了找到孩子的消息。突然感受到她那一刻应该是喜极而泣吧。顿时，我哭了。新加坡还是人间有温情的。 再看了一些MC的相关报道，我又哭了。人真的要在走了后才会知道自己有这么多好友，有多么受爱戴吗？想想自己，如果走了有多少人会想起我？
有点无聊吧。我看我该去看医生了！
Monday, January 07, 2008
My Love Will Get You Home
If you wander off too far
My love will get you home
If you follow the wrong star
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home
Boy, My love will get you home
If the bright lights blinds your eyes
My love will get you home
If your troubles break your stride
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home
If you ever feel ashame
My love will get you home
When there's only you to blame
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home
Boy, My love will get you home
Boy, My love will get you home
- Christine Glass
Saturday, January 05, 2008
如果还有明天
听到了MC King过逝的消息，当时在驾车，眼泪却在眼里打滚。真不知为什么，我从不曾与他认识却突然想到了此时丽梅的感触因该比我更大，更难过。很多画面在脑里闪过，这35年里从身边逝世的友人都突然闪过。由其是CM，我真的好想念你。和你的约定，至今还是我心里的一块遗憾。真的好恨，好恨。连你最后一个SMS也没有回到，连你逝世的消息也是从国外回来后才从同事口中得知。
刚上了丽梅的blog, 我哭了。
如果没有明天，我会做什么？真的无法回答。
如果还有明天，就好好的渡过吧。人生无常，就活在当下。
Ｓ謝謝你。
刚上了丽梅的blog, 我哭了。
如果没有明天，我会做什么？真的无法回答。
如果还有明天，就好好的渡过吧。人生无常，就活在当下。
Ｓ謝謝你。
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Days Gone By...Farewell 2007...Hello 2008...
Last year really went by in a flash...So many things happened in 2007.
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Reality Checks
Expectations can be such a dangerous thing. When one is looking forward to something...one must also be prepared to be let down or disappointed one time or another. Some have commented that I often have a pessimistic outlook of life. But I guess I'm somehow trying to soften the blow of a disappointment if things don't work out as I hoped it would be.
Be it a relationship, a promotion, a meeting or many more goings in my daily life. I often tell myself to take it easy and be ready for the worst. Still I can't say I don't feel the tinge disappointment and frustration when things happened at the other end of the scale. Some say I don't take too well to things that don't turn out well...but do I? Maybe.
I often too ask myself what happiness is? I'm not too sure myself. Often little things that makes me happy are somehow tie to being having some expectations.
Waking up to see your loved one next to you...a simple smile, a peck on the cheek and a lazy "Good Morning". Enjoying a good cup of coffee and toasts while reading morning papers leisurely on a weekday. Taking a deep breath of the cool morning air. Running a good run. Holding hands. Having late night supper despite knowing the evils of it.
Not too tall an order I suppose? Only simple things that will be able to bring a smile of contentment on my face. But then again...when one has expectations of little happiness like these, it does come with the disappointments when one cannot enjoy it. Oh well...reality checks I suppose...
Be it a relationship, a promotion, a meeting or many more goings in my daily life. I often tell myself to take it easy and be ready for the worst. Still I can't say I don't feel the tinge disappointment and frustration when things happened at the other end of the scale. Some say I don't take too well to things that don't turn out well...but do I? Maybe.
I often too ask myself what happiness is? I'm not too sure myself. Often little things that makes me happy are somehow tie to being having some expectations.
Waking up to see your loved one next to you...a simple smile, a peck on the cheek and a lazy "Good Morning". Enjoying a good cup of coffee and toasts while reading morning papers leisurely on a weekday. Taking a deep breath of the cool morning air. Running a good run. Holding hands. Having late night supper despite knowing the evils of it.
Not too tall an order I suppose? Only simple things that will be able to bring a smile of contentment on my face. But then again...when one has expectations of little happiness like these, it does come with the disappointments when one cannot enjoy it. Oh well...reality checks I suppose...
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Vexed . Incompetence . Dejected
Received an interesting note from my senior management after urging the HR a couple of times over the last few months on my confirmation and pay adjustments which was 6 months overdue.
Just had lunch with my user last week and she made a comment. "Your company is famous for slipping the project schedule. The last PM had slipped the last project by a year! Thank goodness this time you only slipped a week."
Am I supposed to feel happy about the comment? I guess I should. Since taking up the project in March, step by step I try to solve the issues of hardware under specifications, incompatible in-house application software with the new proposed OS, near zero system administrator assistance, inexperience engineers over installation and network infrastructure or any system knowledge at all and buggy off-the-shelf software!!! Proposed deployment in end August but manage to deliver in 1st week of September. It was a great learning and hands-on (all by myself) experience for me no doubt but does the management see the efforts I put in? Incompetence? Was it really all me?
Two years in the row without any pay increment, bonus or even AWS since I left my 1st job while other's pocket just get fatter and coming with all sorts of reasons to adjust their own pay.
Time to move on...move on...
Feeling so so dejected.
Dear Alex,Vexed.
HR was brought to my attention that you have not been confirmed and we should rightly review your case.
Please make yourself available for a meeting between HR, you and I. We shall update XXX, your Operation Head, on the details finalized during our discussion.
Understand that the delay of your confirmation is partly due to YYY’s departure, your PM role expectation. We also want to take this opportunity to discuss about the intended plan of your PRD role next year.
Best regards
- YYY (my current boss) only tendered his resignation in October but I was due for confirmation in June...so what got his departure got to do with the delay?
- My PM role expectation. Was the delay due to my expectation of my role as the PM? Or was it that they think I did not meet their expectations as a PM?
Just had lunch with my user last week and she made a comment. "Your company is famous for slipping the project schedule. The last PM had slipped the last project by a year! Thank goodness this time you only slipped a week."
Am I supposed to feel happy about the comment? I guess I should. Since taking up the project in March, step by step I try to solve the issues of hardware under specifications, incompatible in-house application software with the new proposed OS, near zero system administrator assistance, inexperience engineers over installation and network infrastructure or any system knowledge at all and buggy off-the-shelf software!!! Proposed deployment in end August but manage to deliver in 1st week of September. It was a great learning and hands-on (all by myself) experience for me no doubt but does the management see the efforts I put in? Incompetence? Was it really all me?
Two years in the row without any pay increment, bonus or even AWS since I left my 1st job while other's pocket just get fatter and coming with all sorts of reasons to adjust their own pay.
Time to move on...move on...
Feeling so so dejected.
Friday, December 14, 2007
Carpe Diem
The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn
There is no future
There is no past
I live this moment as my last
There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today
- RENT
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Runspiration 2007
Did my first Singapore Marathon Run...okay...I only ran 10km...but at least I fulfilled my resolution of 2007 and did my personal best of almost under 1 hr...damn...hahaha :)
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Home coming
In memory of 5 ordinary men - Stephen, Jeremy, Reuben, Boon San and Wei Cheng, whom left behind an extraordinary legacy to people like me whom never got to know themMay you guys rest in peace and be always in the hearts and memories of many.Pulang marilah pulang
Marilah pulang bersama-sama
Monday, November 19, 2007
Random Rumblings...
Up Up
Bus Fare Up
Petrol Up
Flour Up
Petrol Up (Haiz...5 cts)
Bus Fare Up (Erm...wasn't it just adjusted in July?)
Petrol Up (Haiz...closing US$98...)
Paper Up
CPI Up Up Up
BUT
Petroleum Company's Profits Up
Public Transport Company's Profits Up
Ministerial Pay Up (Oh....that was in April)
How come my pay still not up?!
Screaming Vigilantes
Singaporeans had gone on the printed media and blog site of a "celebrity" blogger as the heroes to the damsels' rescue from an ang mo bullying the weaker sex. Wonder if one have seen the video on YouTube? Sorry for not linking here as I just can't stand the screaming and shouting of the vigilantes and the "victim(s)". See it to see who are the victims and who are the aggressors. I'm not saying that Singaporeans should not stand up to help other Singaporeans but then I do not know the actual facts of the events. So I shan't comment more.
If the one sided story published holds true, no doubt that the ang mo was wrong to hit on the girls...But the crux of the issue was that the self proclaimed "celebrity" blogger's bag did bumped into the lady, and did she remember to say sorry in the first place?
Come on, we get bumped by clueless people who had forgotten that their big bulky bag is part of their body once they donned it on almost everyday on MRT, buses and shopping centres. Most of the time we do not even get a word of sorry but instead some rude stares as if we are in the wrong to bump into their bag?!! The incident do not need to turn ugly if the "star" blogger in all her "celebrit-i-ness" could have minded her manners and said sorry in the beginning.
Bus Fare Up
Petrol Up
Flour Up
Petrol Up (Haiz...5 cts)
Bus Fare Up (Erm...wasn't it just adjusted in July?)
Petrol Up (Haiz...closing US$98...)
Paper Up
CPI Up Up Up
BUT
Petroleum Company's Profits Up
Public Transport Company's Profits Up
Ministerial Pay Up (Oh....that was in April)
How come my pay still not up?!
Screaming Vigilantes
Singaporeans had gone on the printed media and blog site of a "celebrity" blogger as the heroes to the damsels' rescue from an ang mo bullying the weaker sex. Wonder if one have seen the video on YouTube? Sorry for not linking here as I just can't stand the screaming and shouting of the vigilantes and the "victim(s)". See it to see who are the victims and who are the aggressors. I'm not saying that Singaporeans should not stand up to help other Singaporeans but then I do not know the actual facts of the events. So I shan't comment more.
If the one sided story published holds true, no doubt that the ang mo was wrong to hit on the girls...But the crux of the issue was that the self proclaimed "celebrity" blogger's bag did bumped into the lady, and did she remember to say sorry in the first place?
Come on, we get bumped by clueless people who had forgotten that their big bulky bag is part of their body once they donned it on almost everyday on MRT, buses and shopping centres. Most of the time we do not even get a word of sorry but instead some rude stares as if we are in the wrong to bump into their bag?!! The incident do not need to turn ugly if the "star" blogger in all her "celebrit-i-ness" could have minded her manners and said sorry in the beginning.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
《当我老了》 — 写给孩子的一封信
我老了，不再是原来的我。
请理解我，对我有一点耐心。
当我把菜汤洒到自己的衣服上时，
当我忘记怎样系鞋带时，
请想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。
当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语，
请耐心地听我说，不要打断我。
你从小的时候，我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事，
直到你进入梦乡。
当我需要你帮我洗澡时，请不要责备我。
还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗？
当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时，请不要嘲笑我。
想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个“为什么”。
当我由于双脚疲劳而无法行走时，
请伸出你年轻有力的手搀扶我。
就像你小时候学习走路时，我扶你那样。
当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题，请给我一些时间让我回想。
其实对我来说，谈论什么并不重要，
只要你能在一旁听我说，我就很满足。
当你看着老去的我，请不要悲伤。
理解我，支持我，就像你刚开始
学习如何生活时我对你那样。
当初我引导你走上人生的路，
如今请陪我走完最后的路。
给我你的爱和耐心，我会报以感激的微笑。
这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。文章择选自墨西哥《数字家庭》2004年11月号
Friday, October 26, 2007
Lame Musings - BenGay
Penetrating Pain Relief...better than KY.....
They also come with Deep Penetrating Pain Relief...hahaha
They also come with Deep Penetrating Pain Relief...hahahaSunday, September 30, 2007
Friday, September 07, 2007
Monday, September 03, 2007
绕梁一世
《天冷就回来》也已演完了19场，公然的在昨天落幕了。上星期看了那一场演出后，就一直想写一写自己的感觉，脑海里一直在想著："这一次，一定要以中文写！" 但就是一直跟自己喋喋不休的争个有的没的，然后就是一拖再拖。
真的很佩服杜国威能以梁文福的近35首歌曲铺排成一部可说是新加坡派的音乐剧。但如果和《我和春天有个约会》比较，我总觉得《天》就是还缺了一些...但又说不出来的什么。其实《天》并不是梁文福的第一出音乐剧，在1996年看了和叶良俊合作的《雨季》后就一直蛮期待能再看到下一部属于新加坡的华语音乐剧。虽然不像《雨》都是和叶良俊的原创音乐和歌曲，但能在《天》中以另一种方式来诠释伴我成长的新谣，的确给了我一些惊喜和感动，并让我重新了解一些歌词中的意义。不能不说梁文福的词曲真的很能不经意的将我们的情绪牵动。当然演员的努力，大家所付出的，都得到了满场的掌声与感动。
其实蛮惊讶的是一直都以为George Chan (田伟鸿)是一位舞蹈员和口操英语的舞台演员，所以当我在看到海报时，的确有点讶异，"华语leh!! 不要像May and Choy在《881》 這樣吧？ 倒想看一看他能在剧中会有怎样的演出。" 就在这样的心态下而决定买票的。但我真的是有眼不識O-yee-O! 哈哈哈！他那嘹亮而厚实的歌声的的确确的把我给慑服了。Joanna (董姿彥）的声音也有很吸引人的地方，带点英文腔但又不会有洋人味。她猫女郎的一举手，一投足和她水的肢体都让我吸引。但Rose 和阿乐的初遇，却给我像在《RENT》里Mimi和Roger初识的影子。
虽不是什么声乐专家，但大多演员们歌声的稳定度，有时真的会为他们捏一把冷汗... 對Sebastian Tan (陈瑞彪)的声音有点小小的失望，也许累了或也许和George的比较，他的声线就显得有点单薄。小演员们的有点难以控制, 资深演员(黄家强, 吴悦娟)和歌手(郑展伦)也再一次证明了姜还是老的辣！王欣在戏中的串场有点小小的遗憾。
林燮毅的可爱，也许是他的外型，一出场就很有comic feel。其实和燮毅有过那小小的认识，7年前在纽约通过朋友认识时就是那么圆圆的。还记得我的millenium就是在纽约和他与另三个朋友吃著饺子渡过的。当时就很喜欢纽约的生活，看燮毅在那儿主修声乐和另一位在那儿跳舞的女孩(想一想...那女孩好像就是郭劲红...郭宝崑的另一位千金...但不确定也想不起）那時好崇拜也羨慕他們，觉得他们都很勇敢，敢为自己的目标奋斗。所以当我看到燮毅在台上時，就好像看他们当时给我的感慨。Rose和成叔在纽约的奋斗，就好像在说著他们的故事。不知他们是否还记得我这位无名的过客。
真的很佩服杜国威能以梁文福的近35首歌曲铺排成一部可说是新加坡派的音乐剧。但如果和《我和春天有个约会》比较，我总觉得《天》就是还缺了一些...但又说不出来的什么。其实《天》并不是梁文福的第一出音乐剧，在1996年看了和叶良俊合作的《雨季》后就一直蛮期待能再看到下一部属于新加坡的华语音乐剧。虽然不像《雨》都是和叶良俊的原创音乐和歌曲，但能在《天》中以另一种方式来诠释伴我成长的新谣，的确给了我一些惊喜和感动，并让我重新了解一些歌词中的意义。不能不说梁文福的词曲真的很能不经意的将我们的情绪牵动。当然演员的努力，大家所付出的，都得到了满场的掌声与感动。
其实蛮惊讶的是一直都以为George Chan (田伟鸿)是一位舞蹈员和口操英语的舞台演员，所以当我在看到海报时，的确有点讶异，"华语leh!! 不要像May and Choy在《881》 這樣吧？ 倒想看一看他能在剧中会有怎样的演出。" 就在这样的心态下而决定买票的。但我真的是有眼不識O-yee-O! 哈哈哈！他那嘹亮而厚实的歌声的的确确的把我给慑服了。Joanna (董姿彥）的声音也有很吸引人的地方，带点英文腔但又不会有洋人味。她猫女郎的一举手，一投足和她水的肢体都让我吸引。但Rose 和阿乐的初遇，却给我像在《RENT》里Mimi和Roger初识的影子。
虽不是什么声乐专家，但大多演员们歌声的稳定度，有时真的会为他们捏一把冷汗... 對Sebastian Tan (陈瑞彪)的声音有点小小的失望，也许累了或也许和George的比较，他的声线就显得有点单薄。小演员们的有点难以控制, 资深演员(黄家强, 吴悦娟)和歌手(郑展伦)也再一次证明了姜还是老的辣！王欣在戏中的串场有点小小的遗憾。
林燮毅的可爱，也许是他的外型，一出场就很有comic feel。其实和燮毅有过那小小的认识，7年前在纽约通过朋友认识时就是那么圆圆的。还记得我的millenium就是在纽约和他与另三个朋友吃著饺子渡过的。当时就很喜欢纽约的生活，看燮毅在那儿主修声乐和另一位在那儿跳舞的女孩(想一想...那女孩好像就是郭劲红...郭宝崑的另一位千金...但不确定也想不起）那時好崇拜也羨慕他們，觉得他们都很勇敢，敢为自己的目标奋斗。所以当我看到燮毅在台上時，就好像看他们当时给我的感慨。Rose和成叔在纽约的奋斗，就好像在说著他们的故事。不知他们是否还记得我这位无名的过客。
天冷你就回来
别在风中徘徊
我猜我眼里有明白
还有一丝无奈
天冷他没回家
我仍然在等待
明天的雨点洒下来
那滋味就是爱
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
迷宫
现在是什么样的心情
自己也说不上来
也许想太多
也许是一直对生活都太执著
常问自己
到底心里想著什么
又在执著什么
我也无法说出口
只觉得好累好累
对生活开始没有太多的冲动
我真的也不想想太多
好想出去好好的出走
让自己好好的放松
是生活的牵绊
还是自我的束缚
就因我一直都想太多
我真的不想想太多
只要好好的放轻松
自己也说不上来
也许想太多
也许是一直对生活都太执著
常问自己
到底心里想著什么
又在执著什么
我也无法说出口
只觉得好累好累
对生活开始没有太多的冲动
我真的也不想想太多
好想出去好好的出走
让自己好好的放松
是生活的牵绊
还是自我的束缚
就因我一直都想太多
我真的不想想太多
只要好好的放轻松
Saturday, August 11, 2007
八八么 (Papaya) - 摇啊摇 - 发啦!!!
Hmm...trying not to don my movie critic hat at this hour of the night, but I guess it does not harm just to give my cents or two of the movie...even though I know practically no one really read my blog...hahah...
First and foremost, I must say I really did enjoy the movie quite a bit and leaving the cinema red eyed and red nosed *blush* Too emotional I told myself but I'm always a sucker for those tear jerking moments and sitting at the last row of the theatre with no one else helps...hahaha
[Spoiler Alert]
Frankly the main cast especially the girl power namely from Yeo Yann Yann 杨雁雁 (simply love her even more since Singapore Dreaming), Mindee Ong 王欣 (has seen her mature since her debut in the early idol times in the then TCS - I must say she was very impressive in the show) and lastly Liu Ling Ling 刘玲玲 (outdo her performance in any J-Team movie, though she left an impression in I Not Stupid) really propelled the show to be as entertaining and touching as it can be. Though I must say the supernatural element (歌台娘娘), the laser shooting bra and the 如来神掌 like duel between the payayas and the durians are somewhat stupidify the movie but somehow hilariously funny.
But I must say, I was not overly impress by 715's performance. I guess there were so much rave comments and accolades about his performance in the papers recently that I expected more than those pair of talking eyes. Hahaha...at times I don't even know if he is smiling during sad moments or sad during happy moments in the show. And do we need really to cast May and Choy as the Durian Sisters? Yes...they are gaining lots of attention in the Singapore media scene but they were really a pain to see on screen especially when they spout those lines in their nearly non existence mandarin.
However, I guess it was quite an interesting hokkien musical movie to watch. Really like the songs , the many impressive 歌台 costumes and the way Royston Tan handles his shots and good editing. The narration by Royston Tan himself never fails to impress since I first watched <<15>>. His voice has a certain magnetism and is able to draw out the inner feelings in you to flow with his narration. 感性之音?
Well, who says hokkien songs are "orbit" and "obiang"? I would say great job to Royston Tan for making a great film to pay tribute to our heritage, our tradition, our culture. Frankly I believe this film is also a tribute not only to 陈金浪 but also to the unsung heroes and heroines of the 七月歌台.
摇啊摇 - 发啦!!!
First and foremost, I must say I really did enjoy the movie quite a bit and leaving the cinema red eyed and red nosed *blush* Too emotional I told myself but I'm always a sucker for those tear jerking moments and sitting at the last row of the theatre with no one else helps...hahaha
[Spoiler Alert]
Frankly the main cast especially the girl power namely from Yeo Yann Yann 杨雁雁 (simply love her even more since Singapore Dreaming), Mindee Ong 王欣 (has seen her mature since her debut in the early idol times in the then TCS - I must say she was very impressive in the show) and lastly Liu Ling Ling 刘玲玲 (outdo her performance in any J-Team movie, though she left an impression in I Not Stupid) really propelled the show to be as entertaining and touching as it can be. Though I must say the supernatural element (歌台娘娘), the laser shooting bra and the 如来神掌 like duel between the payayas and the durians are somewhat stupidify the movie but somehow hilariously funny.
But I must say, I was not overly impress by 715's performance. I guess there were so much rave comments and accolades about his performance in the papers recently that I expected more than those pair of talking eyes. Hahaha...at times I don't even know if he is smiling during sad moments or sad during happy moments in the show. And do we need really to cast May and Choy as the Durian Sisters? Yes...they are gaining lots of attention in the Singapore media scene but they were really a pain to see on screen especially when they spout those lines in their nearly non existence mandarin.
However, I guess it was quite an interesting hokkien musical movie to watch. Really like the songs , the many impressive 歌台 costumes and the way Royston Tan handles his shots and good editing. The narration by Royston Tan himself never fails to impress since I first watched <<15>>. His voice has a certain magnetism and is able to draw out the inner feelings in you to flow with his narration. 感性之音?
Well, who says hokkien songs are "orbit" and "obiang"? I would say great job to Royston Tan for making a great film to pay tribute to our heritage, our tradition, our culture. Frankly I believe this film is also a tribute not only to 陈金浪 but also to the unsung heroes and heroines of the 七月歌台.
摇啊摇 - 发啦!!!
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